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In stock online. Available in stores. The award-winning, big-hearted novel about being seen for who you really are, and a love story you can''t help but root for. Amanda Hardy is the new girl in school. Like anyone else, all she wants is to make friends and fit in. But Amanda is keeping a secret, and she''s determined not to get too close to anyone.
But when she meets sweet, easygoing Grant, Amanda can''t help but start to let him into her life. As they spend more time together, she realizes just how much she is losing by guarding her heart. She finds herself yearning to share with Grant everything about herself, including her past. But Amanda''s terrified that once she tells him the truth, he won''t be able to see past it.
Because the secret that Amanda''s been keeping? It''s that at her old school, she used to be Andrew. Will the truth cost Amanda her new life, and her new love? The following ISBNs are associated with this title:. Meredith Russo has a new book, Birthday , releasing in a few weeks and I hope once more people discover how insanely tender and beautiful her writing is, they will go back and read this one as well.
In conclusion, read this book. Thank you for Read this book. Thank you for attending my TED talk. View all 5 comments. Jan 19, Natalie Monroe rated it really liked it Shelves: cheesy-cheesy-cheesy , love-wins , girl-squad , great-but-not-quite-there-yet , real-problems. My review is limited by my own experiences, which has unfortunately not included actual face-to-face contact with a trans person. My beef is with how easily Amanda is accepted into the social fold. First day at school and she's already got two male admirers and four "I should have been born a girl.
First day at school and she's already got two male admirers and four instant girl buddies, without her making a genuine effort to interact with people. Remember Bella Swan? Wanna go to prom? Everything else I adored. There are characters in all shades of grey. Most of them are somewhere in between, transitioning, learning, like in real life. Amanda's parents love and accept her, but it also takes them time to adjust to having a daughter instead of a son.
You also have someone from a very strict religious family, a semi-closeted lesbian, a bisexual woman who makes mistakes, and a boy finding his place on the gender spectrum. Plus, special shout-out to the use of positive female relationships in the context of support systems. The ending is perfect. It doesn't end with a traditional happily ever after, but rather the promise of one.
A promise that transgender people deserve fairytale endings just as much as everyone else. Dec 17, Whitney Atkinson rated it liked it Shelves: unhauled , sent-from-pub , mental-health , read-in , lgbtqiap. This would have been a four star book because I thought it was a well-rounded story about Amanda becoming confident in herself and transforming into someone brave and self-assured, but I took off an entire star because the way that she was outed was so cruel and unnecessary.
I wished so badly that Amanda would be able to tell Grant on her own terms, and it upset me that it was used as a plot twist instead. However, I did end up liking how Amanda handled conflicts with everyone in the end, including how open-ended this is. Nov 27, Mara rated it liked it.
This book is publishing done right. A contemporary YA romance about a transgender girl, written by a transgender woman and featuring a transgender model on the cover. Absolutely loved Amanda's story! Jan 20, Dahlia rated it it was amazing Shelves: quiltbag-ya , releases , ownvoices , lgbtqreads , fave-mcs , topof This is not that. I legit loved it, from the dedication to the author's note to the book itself, and will be rec-ing the shit out of it for the next year and beyond.
So happy to finally have a trans book by a trans author in YA from a big publisher, and the fact that there's even trans rep on the cover is just the perfect icing. Amanda is a great MC, the secondary characters are nicely done, and I really, really loved how involved her parents were, past and present. Like what the hell was wrong with me? I can't even think properly right now, because this book The story was amazing, I really like the dual-time aspect because it helped me to understand Amanda a lot more, to see where she's coming from and how much she went through.
I loved the romance, the way Grant and Amanda just 'clicked' like she said so well, the Stars Wars references, the cute moments, this deep trust they have in each other. And I understand the way Grant reacted, I can't say I approve but I understand, and what he says to her at the very end of the book was beautiful. He's not trying to be perfect, he's not lying to her and saying everything is okay, no, he's saying "I love you, please tell me everything about you and help me.
Help me because I want to understand you, and I won't give up on you. So now, do yourself a fucking huge favor and go read this book. What the hell are you waiting for? Maybe this would be the last conversation I would ever have with Grant. Maybe not. I deserved to live.
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I deserved to find love. I knew now—I believed, now—that I deserved to be loved. If I was Your Girl is my second book that deals with transgender theme. My first one is Lily and Dunkin. So, reading this book is like reading Lily's transgender life only she's more grown up and her name here is Amanda. Both Lily and Amanda got bullied at school. They also has a forbearing and understanding mother but an intolerant father. What's new from this book for me is that now I got to see how a fully transgender people like Amanda socializes at high school where no one knows her story.
How she had a crush on a boy like Grant and finally how they make love. Of course it's not easy for Amanda. She always says to take it slow when it's not the only reason. Because she's so popular in her new school. Everybody wants to be like her. Every boy's dying to be her boyfriend. And as the homecoming party getting closer, suddenly I smelt the plot of Carrie , which was a bit similar, in fact.
But after view spoiler [the spill of the "dark secrets" hide spoiler ] , what I thought before was completely wrong. This is no Mean Girls wanna be. I like the story telling. It's told between the present and the past but not bewildering. The process of transgender is described in a light and uncomplicated way and it is a satisfactory for me. Through this book I found out that once a transgender surgery is done, one doesn't immediately become a woman. Like Amanda said: "It was going to be hard. I was going to have to pretend to be a boy for a little while longer.
No matter how much I tried to hide it, classmates and family members were going to notice my body change. The bullying would probably be worse than ever I don't think I would be as strong and brave as she is. Though she once tried to kill herself, she's still a brave girl. I'm so glad with the ending. It's kinda cliffhanger but I'm pretty sure how Grant would react after reading all Amanda's story. And just like Lily and Dunkin , there's a happy and heartwarming ending between Amanda and her father. View all 9 comments.
I knew now - I believed, now - that I deserved to be loved. It is very brave to be transgender in this world, and it's even braver to write a book about a transgender character based on your experiences as trans. I know nearly everyone who's read this book has called it important, and brave, but I'm going to say it again because it's just so true. Everyone should read this book, everyone. As a trans person who struggles with anxiety and depression, like Amanda, and who has wished many times that I wasn't alive anymore - I really fucking needed the reminder that trans people can have happy endings.
It sure as hell is a rough ride getting there, but there's always - always - hope. Thank you, Meredith Russo. This is an ownvoices book about a transwoman called Amanda who moves schools in order to live with her father. It follows her becoming situated in the town, and trying to navigate high school life, whilst not outing herself as trans to those she meets. I think this was definitely a strong debut, the prose really carried me through this book and so it was a quick and easy read i'm so glad I finally read this book.
I think this was definitely a strong debut, the prose really carried me through this book and so it was a quick and easy read - very engaging. Amanda is a strong character and I also thought the side characters were interesting. The trans issues were dealt with wonderfully, and I really liked the authors note about representation at the end. One thing I really didn't like about this book was the open ending, and the representation of the bisexual character.
But overall this is a book I think everyone needs to read - ownvoices trans stories published by major publishers are rare and we're privileged to have this one. It's enlightening and important and offers a message of hope despite a world that can seem bleak for queer people tw for: rape, transphobia, homophobia, sexual assault, bullying, physical assault, deadnaming and misgendering, forced outing, suicide mentions, explicit suicide attempt a more comprehensive review to come!
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Feb 09, Elizabeth rated it liked it Shelves: young-adult , murica , lqbtqia. I will start off by saying that I am a cis woman, and therefore my review is limited to my own experiences. I love being a woman. It is a huge part of who I am, and I would be devastated if tomorrow someone told me I had to be a man because that's who I really was. My heart breaks for trans people when I think about the incredible amount of difficulties they face, simply for being themselves. And the amount of people who can't be themselves due to fear for their own safety.
As many more before me I will start off by saying that I am a cis woman, and therefore my review is limited to my own experiences. As many more before me have said, this is a really important book. It's a debut, the writing is rather sweet, the story moves a bit too quickly, and many of the characters are one dimensional I was nearly halfway through the book before I was finally able to differentiate between Layla, Anna, and Chloe.
There is also a heavy dose of 'Murica the promposal scene, the twangy, Southern dialect, and the religious undertones - Anna's parents having an "I can't help if I'm a homophobe, I was born that way! I think this would be a particularly valuable novel for younger teens between the ages of Stand out moments for me were the relationship between Amanda and her parents, trying to be supportive while desperately fearing for their child's safety and ability to lead a "normal" life; as well as the confession scene between Amanda and Bee wherein Bee wonders what is okay for her to inquire about and Amanda tells her exactly what she doesn't want to be asked.
This was super informative and really good to know! Parts of the novel are heart-wrenching, and I think so many people, regardless of gender or identity, would be able to take something away from this story. This book was so very cute, and SOOO informative. I learned so much about the trans community and how to be respectful of those within it and I am just so pleased to have read it.
Only taking off a star because I feel like there were a few bits of the plot that were a little convenient or left unresolved, but I'm still so happy with this. Aug 22, Jenny Reading Envy rated it really liked it Shelves: read , ya. I kept hearing about this book and decided I needed to read it too. In some ways I believe it's a first - a YA novel about a transgender teen, written by a transgender author, and even the cover model is a transperson from what I understand.
Crossing boundaries like crazy. On other levels it is a pretty "typical" teen novel, in the sense that Amanda discovers that she is not the only one with secrets, not the only one living with high stakes should those secrets be uncovered, and the surrounding I kept hearing about this book and decided I needed to read it too. On other levels it is a pretty "typical" teen novel, in the sense that Amanda discovers that she is not the only one with secrets, not the only one living with high stakes should those secrets be uncovered, and the surrounding society is brutal, unforgiving, and slow to change.
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These truths do not make her life any easier, but does serve to put them in context. After all, she has had to relocate to a small town near Chattanooga from a suburb of Atlanta after experiencing difficulties remaining in the same school after a suicide attempt as well as during her transition. And we all know that the south remains the one of the unfriendliest places for violence toward the transgender community. There have been many instances of violence committed just this year.
This is not just general bullying, this can be life or death. The author acknowledges the issues with her own novel, so I don't need to mention them but will! Nor do most people have options for surgeries and hormonal treatments so early, should they choose them. And obviously her family as described would not be likely to afford them.
But the author allows for these things to be possible and true for a very important reason - to show Amanda as a possibility. I ended up agreeing with these decisions because I was thinking back to novels like The Price of Salt you may know it as Carol where it seemed like even Patricia Highsmith with a pseudonym still had to have her character who dared to entertain the idea of happiness with a nonhetero sexuality end up with some kind of trauma or downfall because of it.
In other words for so long, lgbt characters are only "allowed" to exist in literature if their very existence leads to negative dramatic events.
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Intended or not, this ends up sending a message that you must suffer to be who you are. I think the author is hoping for a time where this doesn't have to be the assumption, but had to write it to have it exist in YA literature. There is no doubt that the theme of trans people being accepted as normal is important for everyone to learn.
If it had been too specific then it might not have connected to a wide audience and a debut YA novel tends to need to reach many people. With this in mind, I was a bit disappointed in how typical this book was. My rating is 3. I love that this was not about Amanda transitioning but just her being a girl and falling in love with a boy.
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